Saturday, April 29, 2006
changed the song.. tears in heaven rocks..lol..
If i should die today - Remember me as i was yesterday
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
hmm... i feel myself changing =/ or i've already changed.. not the same old ben ? hahs.. getting more n more quiet? or isit nth fer me to talk bout anymore.. hahas.. i can type.. but i cant talk.. lol.. im mad.. lols.. take me in sim!! i will be top student there! lols.. and awaiting to start a better lifestyle there =/
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
hais.. today had been a wierd day fer me.. maybe cause guilty conscience! lols... feel so bad la.. the fliers.. i didnt do a good job... lol.. today.. went out pool.. shi brought din along.. hahas.. felt good tht at least one of my buddies got like a good relationship? or at least i hope they have =) .. today at paradigm... felt so unlike me....? suddenly alot vulgar.. and SUPER alot.. lols.. and talk super duper loud.. den like.. i suddenly felt like.. erm.. i kinda felt your presence? den like.. erm i tot u were nearby then keep looking around?!?! oh man.. hahas.. anyway... im not the person u always see me as... though i present myself differently when im out with u ... but at least i present myself nicer! lols.. when with buddies im like.. erm.. a loud and joker kinda person.. lol.. but when out with u tend to be more ... SHY! lols... not shy la actually.. like... erm... a very more serious kinda friendship?? hahahahhaa... or am i thinking too much again... but ya.. im actually a joker person la... ALOT PPL KNOW THAT! hahahahahha... anyway... i cherish frens... glad to have u in my life =) seems like recently alls getting quiet too.. u're getting busy.. but ya.. school life =/ or maybe i too used to sms or talk to u? hahs... as wad i say to jas.. ADAPT TO CHANGES... lol... im adapting =)
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
hrms... past 2 days.. think again... but today .. woke up with a smile! =) .. guess i kinda sorted out my thoughts.. hahs.. and yea... i really did think alot the past few days.. lol.. im fine =)
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Monday, April 03, 2006
hahahas.. jus uploaded new skin.. looks cool... a very lonely skin.. hahs.. dampens mood
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been awhile since i blogged.. hahas... 3.34am. cant slp... wake up listen songs.. lol.. hais.. alot of questions on my mind.. but... why am i thinking bout this questions.. lol.. though dun think too much is better.. but.. hahs... sometimes i think.. im a super fortunate person.. family.. friends.. maybe some ppl say no gf then wun be complete.. but well.. i got 2 out of 3!! so should be very happy alr.. hahs.. been a long time since i stepped into bgr.. hahs.. me n marcus always say.. aiya.. let fate decide.. if got then got lo dun have den dun have.. hahs.. but inside.. i noe we dun really feel tat way.. let fate decide = wait for girl jio u.. lols.. then we said.. last time stress over relationship probs cause cant jio until our target... now? hahs... like no target?!?! hahahas.. even now ... if i really like this girl.. i dunno how? hahas... i really dunno how to even jio??.. how to xpress myself.. i dunno how and why.. i just cant talk to girls the way i talk to my frens.. HAHA.. like... erm.. im SHY!.. lols... hais.. cheer up BEN!! Lols.. im mad.. k.. well... suddenly towards bgr thing alot of gan chu.. jipalang all come out.. hahahaha... uploading a mtv on my blog.. v nice and touching =/ k i dun feel like ending this blog.. im real bored.. lols.. always hear this phrase .. Cherish your loved ones.. i really DO cherish my family and friends... hahahas.. though i said i got 2 out of 3 things in my life.. should be v happy.. but..... sometimes.. alone at night.. i can feel the loneliness?.. hahas.. but cause of this ... make me even cherish my family and friends MORE.. hahas.. alone at night.. family n frens all slping... become like.. erm.. 0 out of 3?? then suddenly will think like.. somethings missing..? hahas... but.. cant do much about it also... hahas.. OH.!!! suddenly rmbed a powerpoint slide my dad sent me.. super duper nice.. meaningful ba.. was something about life.. then like.. wow.. real cool..hahas.. there was a sentence i rmb quite well... " The Really Lucky People Do Not Necessarily have the best of everything ; They are the one who make the most of whatever life throws at them " hahas.. so dun everytime think ppl so lucky here n there! lols!!.. " Life " is something that gives things to u... it can give u happiness .. sadness.. jealousy.. blabla.. sometimes ppl say.. man he no life.. lols.. but actually.. he Has a life.. just that maybe his life isnt as interesting as urs?? yea.. hahas... im basically crapping .. erm.. another sentence also.. "When a Door Closes, Another one opens , but often we stand there so long looking at the closed door , that we do not see that one thats' opened." hahas.. familiar right.. but thinking bout it.. is it really true?.. hahas.. somemore nw.. i dun even noe which door is open which door is closed for me -.-" hahs.. suddenly feel like last time.. when i was young.. hahas.. keep thinking of having bgr.. machiam despo.. lol.. i really feel liddat now suddenly.. lols.. but ya.. i noe its dumb.. maybe nw grow up? hahahahaha... but well.. guess this kinda things cant be rushed.. recently very mentally tired... hahs.. been thinking LOTS n LOTS.. lol.. sometimes i really wanna find a person to talk.. i got LOTS to say.. hahs.. but really no one to llisten to me in the middle of the night.. hahas... got ar.. marcus!! without u at weekends i will die.. lols.. too much things in the brain then will xplode.. hahahahaha... man im tired... real tired... mentally... hais.. god can u let me sleep? sleep and forget wads on my mind completely.. hahahas... sometimes i will think also.. who are the frens that really care fer me and take me as a close fren to them... even though i can say they are my close frens.. but i dunno to them i am not.. hahs.. then will think.. maybe when i die.. then i can see.. hahahahas.. will they come crying?? lol.. k im really thinking too much.. lols.. actually life is simple.. just that people make it complicated.. by THINKING TOO MUCH... like me liddat... kumgong.. LoLs.. oh another sentence in the powerpoint slide... "Do not look at physical appearances, they can be deceiving. Do not look at riches, For they are only temporary.Look for someone who makes you smile. Because sometimes it only takes a smile to brighten a very dark day. Look for someone who makes ur heart sing." hahas.. hw nice.. lol.. but the world is practical.. hahas.. u look good + you're rich.. normally u can get things easily.. ppl like me.. hahs.. cant use my looks and riches to get my things.... =/ but i can make ppl smile! hahs... i tink.. though it says look fer someone tht makes ur heart sings... but u do not noe whether the person that make ur heart sings.. whether their heart sings too! lols.. how? hahaha... hais.. after tinking n saying so much.. 4.20am.. lols.. Hui you na me yi tian by Lin Junjie is damn nice! lols.. my brains are like super tired nw.. hahas.. bye
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